Baby Girl Update - 39 weeks

It’s been a stressful week in the Bloomer household, but we are closer to meeting our baby girl!  When the doctor checked me on week 36 and 37, I wasn’t having too much progress.  I had Jack at 37.5 weeks and hadn’t had too much progress previously so it didn’t bother me too much, but the Dr. also couldn’t feel the head.  She ordered an ultrasound for my 38 week appointment, which was this past Tuesday.

I honestly put it out of my mind and felt like she wasn’t breech.  Wouldn’t I know?  My stomach was weird shaped when I would get Braxton Hicks but was similar to where Jack’s bottom was sticking out at the top in my previous pregnancy.  I also felt hiccups down low in my stomach so I felt confident her head was there. 

Well, I was wrong! 

Right when the sonographer put the wand down on the top, right part of my stomach there was a very obvious head.  I pretty much freaked out in the ultrasound and meanwhile she also asked me a weird question about my uterus and got very quiet which scared me.  Turns out I have a bicornuate uterus, which means it is similar to a heart shape.  I’ve googled it a little bit but haven’t let me myself get carried away because the internet is a scary place!  Due to the shape of my uterus I am a contraindication for any kind of inversion & due to her size at this point, they said it is very rare she’d flip.

So…the couple of days of crying & emotion took over.  I always imagined it would be the same as it was with Jack.  I had prepared myself that the actual labor & birth might be different but never pictured having a c-section!  This is completely new.  I am truly grateful that I was able to experience the birth I had with Jack.  For the entire day I thought of all the negatives and things I will miss.  I did not feel like I should be choosing my little girl’s birthday and was worried of course with the recovery, not being able to pick up Jack, and everything else that comes along with a major surgery.  It also took a lot of the anticipation out of it because I was no longer sitting around waiting to go into labor or for my water to break, but instead know that my body is not progressing since there is no head putting pressure on my cervix.  I am trying to stay positive and of course keep the focus on the beautiful baby girl that will be here soon. 

Lots of prayers have been said continually and all prayers are greatly appreciated for her arrival, her health, my health, our family, and especially Jack.  I have never been worried about him with this baby's arrival, but he definitely knows something is going on with me being so emotional this week and he has been extra clingy.  One of the hardest parts of accepting this C-section has been that it breaks my heart that I won't be able to love on him like normal & pick him up and give him a big hug...it will just have to be different.

I know that this is all part of His plan and I will continue to look to Him this week.  We are so excited to meet our baby (still unnamed) girl so soon!